Reflections in Glass

Sometimes I get itchy fingers (like itchy feet but with less expensive consequences!)  I need to make or create or do something tactile.  Sometimes it is because life can get a bit routine – work, cooking, cleaning, driving, mowing the lawn –all good in their own way, can seem a bit mundane at times.

We have a Wendy House in the garden – home to cutters, rakes, brooms, garden chairs – that sort of thing.  It is as old as our title deed and rather weathered.  Quaintly, a stubborn rose plant is growing up a side, through the house and poking some branches out the front. (No rose flowers in all the twenty years, but such determination I can’t cut away.  Besides it looks rustic.)  Parts of the shed are actually rotten – the wood needs replacing. And don’t look too carefully if you don’t want to see the little beetle holes.  It is a ramshackle shed.

A few years ago we screwed the windows shut after I found someone in the garden trying to get into the Wendy House.  What he wanted I will never know, because we both startled each other and he ran off.  So the windows no longer open, and the door is symbolically rotten.

What better place to put a stained glass window.

I love cutting glass and playing with the way light falls, reflects and gets absorbed by colours. So, that is my latest project and it gives me a lot of satisfaction.

And of course, time to think.  Sometimes those of us who feel that we are more than the sum of the functions we do, need a little sparkle added to our lives.  I am very conscious of the many comparisons that I can make between my Wendy House and my Wendy Self, what with some rotten bits, quaintly ramshackle and don’t even get me started on the whole intruder- in- the- garden- and- window scenario!  So spending some time on adding a completely unnecessary but creatively fun window into the Wendy Shed/Soul turned out to be not so unnecessary after all.  I needed to add a personal touch to a neglected space.

Parenting is hard work.  We all have challenges to face . Sometimes the challenges are  immediate or more intense than at other times.  Sometimes it is the long term just coping with everything that is thrown at us that seeps away the energy.  I love being a parent.  I love the creativity, problem solving, all consuming attention it requires.  I even love the difficult bits, the sleepness nights, the routine of it.  Because all of it, like the pieces of glass in a stained glass window, create a whole picture from fractured bits and pieces.  I added a few mirror pieces in the window too, just to remind myself to put some self reflection in the mix. 

The window has turned my ramshackle shed into an Eclectic Garden Storage Unit.  Nah not really. It is just my Wendy House.

Now serving number P326 at Counter 5.....

I am lucky in that I get lots of time for reflection, people-watching and day- dreaming.  All in queues.  I am a regular at the local pharmacy, as I have to pick up TD’s monthly supplies of insulin, needles, testing strips and allergy medication.  There are usually several other trips during the month to cater for the normal household medical needs and aches and pains. 

 

Government Prescribed Minimum Benefits (PMBs) means that our medical aid is co-erced into paying for TD’s two types of insulin, the glucose testing strips and needles. Strangely, they won’t pay for the Glucagen Hypokit for unconscious lows or ketone strips to test excessive highs, despite the fact that these could prevent hospitalization of TD, which would have a far greater cost to them than the preventative medications and tests.  But who am I to fathom the logic of the corporate insurance giants.

They pay for 200 testing strips a month.  That is usually sufficient, except at times like the past six weeks when the roller coaster of mostly highs has meant TD has needed to test many more times a day, and so she ran out before the refill date.

Medical Aid allows me to pick up stock 4 days before a full calendar month.  So I have learnt how to time my visits to maximise the benefits, I have learnt how to deal with repeat scripts, how long a script is valid, when re-authorisation is likely so that I don’t get caught out and the medicine can’t be issued.  That sort of thing.  I have also learnt to take a small cooler bag with an ice block for the insulins, to keep the cold chain intact.

But mostly I have learnt to be patient.  I go with the thought that everyone – pharmacists, medical aid reps, doctors, moms(!) are all doing their best .  Sometimes there are glitches in the system – medication is not available or they only have partial stock; the system won’t issue without the latest Hb1c confirmation; the pharmacy is having a slow day.  It used to make my heart sink.

So I decided to use the time as my “medicine”, to practise meaningful breathing (try it – deeply and consciously breathing has got me through more than one unhappy day!).  I suppose it is no co-incidence that someone needing medical attention is called a patient.  If Time is a great healer, the pharmacy is nothing short of a miracle centre.

It must be a tough gig dealing with sick people all day, because most of us are not at our social best when feeling under the weather.  So, although I can’t say I look forward to long waits at the pharmacy, I can take a philosophical view, and be grateful that there are life saving drugs and knowledgeable medical people available to help TD and keep her alive.  Sitting in a queue is

really a very small price to pay.